I'm back!! With updates :D!

Well, Well, Well.. It's been quite some time since I've been on here. Well let's start off with this. For the people that don't know my story, here's the link:      http://www.bipolarbabe.com/forum/hey-im-dustin-2                  Now for the people that are possibly still on here and do remember my story I got some wonderful updates dealing with my life.

1) I stopped taking my medication the doctors wanted me on for my Bipolar. I personally feel a bit better abit this but, I'll always have a bottle over the stove just incase. My girlfriend is by my side more than ever, every time I feel a little bit worse or when I feel like I'm going to snap she always has a way of calming it down.

2) I have stopped doing all the drugs I got back into. I've been clean for over a year, only thing I do now is smoke cigarettes and have the occasional drink with my newly found friends.

3) I now have my own place and I'm living a pretty stable life! I have an interview on the 24th actually for a cooking job, plus, I have a little cat now. His name is hunter but, the bad news, he officially became half a man last week but now, atleast the new apartment I'm moving into will accept him since he's been fixed.

4) From all the horrible things that my parents have don't to me, I just forgave them. I woke up one morning and I just felt like having some coffee with my mother. Took me a while to get a hold of her but I did and now she basically come's over every morning unannounced just to have coffee... My family and I had a very long disgussion about everything that has happened, we forgave one another and basically agreed that it never happened.

Time for the down falls.

1) I don't know why, but during the day when I'm around my girlfriend or my new friends I've made I'm perfectly fine. But usually when I'm about to go to bed or when I just wake up I suddenly have this huge amount of angry just all built up and wanting to explode.

2) My vision is slowly going. No, I'm not going blind, but, everything now has this suddle blue tinge too it. Thank god for the 4 month waiting list to go to the doctors to see what's wrong.

3) Since I've stopped taking my medication I have been suffering from withdraws like: Lack of sleep, Sudden bursts of anger, randomly being tired and plus my speech. I sound like I'm hammered sometimes when I talk. I just start to mumble and make no sense.

4) Even though I'm back in touch with my family, a few months back (3-4) my grandpa had 3 strokes within an hour. He has been in the hospital since. It does hurt seeing my grandpa like that, but, it hurts more knowing that he will be living the remainder of his life... In a hospital bed. I went and seen my grandma and she talks like he's still in the house, it does worry me so my family and I tend to go see her a lot more now.

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If there is anything else you would like to know for an update just let me know, so far that's all I can think about at 4:47AM. Anyways, I missed you all and I'm glad to be back and in one bit. Hope to talk to you guys and gals soon. Ciao!